Improving my skills...

I have been reluctant to master my JAVA skills ever since I started to have the phobia of debugging code, spending long working hours and being a fire fighter. I think I am wrong with those moves that I have taken.

Now, I clearly understand and define that thing that been dragging me all this while is I didn't take my time to master my JAVA skills which is one of the major weapon that I should keep and sharpen for my battle. That's why I have so many dramas for myself.

It is just like last time as have been very reluctant to deal with foreigners because I have a very bad English. So most of the time I will just kept quiet and let others to do the conversation. I can speak but not to certain people who can speaks with a very fluent English.

But now, I can't say that I can speak very well and fluent but at least I managed to convey my message over with confident. One of the way that I used to learnt my English is when my colleagues who are graduates from Australia speaks or ask questions, I will follow it in my heart. So, when I started to ask questions, my brain will start working with my heart to construct a proper question. One funny thing is about our language accent. Last time, my English used to be sounds flat. (Just like how we speak Malay). But now, I realize that I have change the tone or accent when speaking English. When my CEO was here, I used to follow the way she speaks. Sounds weird but effective.

Last week, I have a very long chat with boss. Along that conversation, I really learnt lot from him especially on how to find the passion of doing something. To learn one things is really about passion and determination. I admit that I do not have passion in JAVA. But I have passion to teach and learn. Now, it's the determination that I need. I believe determination will leads actions. Now, my mission is to be certified as a JAVA Programmer and I believe I can as I have started with my action. This is not for anyone but for myself. :)

Next will be Oracle

I finally have this quote in my mind:
-Good or bad, it's you decide and no one else-

-Kay Nny-